For a long time I always thought that by apologizing to the people i insulted when rather it was necessary for the time that it happened because it taught me and the opponent some things about ourselves and our flaws. NOBODY in this sport is innocent of being uncivil to another person. NOBODY in this sport has clean hands that are not stained with blood from another person they beat to a pulp. And NOBODY in this sport is innocent of making somebody feel below them so that they can feel something MOST have not ever felt before and that's being in control of their lives. Many reading this will say "Yacoob how long is this act going to last? We've seen you come to a revelation about yourself before and it's the same shit everytime. You can't change the asshole that you are." Verily i say this. Each man or woman is judged by their actions by the one who gave us life and everybody will reap what they sow and believe me i have reaped everything i have dished out. I have been a sore loser, i have bitched, i have acted childish, i have made fun of people when i clearly should have been making fun of myself for letting a sport disrupt my inner peace and stir the animal side in my nature that exists in everyone of us. I'm not here to suck up to anybody and i'm not here to apologize because everything has been equally dished out by everybody BUT i am here to cleanse myself of defying GOD's way and that's the way of peace, fun, and a heatlhy life. The more you bitch, the more you pick fun at somebody's flaws, the more you judge, the more you deny who you really are the more you are investing in your misery, pain, and suffering because in the end everybody creates their own heaven and hell through the choices they make everyday.

If anybody shares these feelings i would like you to confess it here right now and make yourself new
I'm not a christain, or Bhuddist, or anything
I just believe in the infinite creating spirit and that i'm trying to undo my mistakes for the sake of a healthy and peaceful coexistence with all of you who in one way or the other have been my friends.

May Peace and Blessings Shine Upon you all resplendently
"Maktub" (Arabic meaning "As It Is Written")

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